I have been guilty of holding some grudges now and withholding some forgiveness in a situation I dealt with this summer. I had my feelings hurt by someone close to me, someone I used to look up to. They let me down and I had a hard time getting over it. From a healthy place now though, I'm ready to forgive, even forget a bit and move on. I don't know the path this person has been asked to walk in life, I don't know their battles. I'm offering this person grace and mercy and moving on.
I am also just so tired of negative, well for lack of better words, bullshit. There is so much negative BS around sometimes and it can get so easy to get bogged down in judging others, tearing them down so it makes yourself feel better. I don't want to do that anymore. I don't want my son growing up thinking it's ok to bash others behind their back. I may not agree with how someone chooses to live their life or handle a given situation, but you know what, it's their life, not mine. I wouldn't want them judging me. My mom and aunts and I have been rather fond of the Polish proverb "Not my circus, not my monkeys" lately - and that's where I'm at in terms of someone else and how they live their life.
Above all I just want to choose happiness. It's so much better than being bogged down with anger, resentment, sadness, etc. I'm choosing kindness. I am going to work on not judging, holding grudges or withholding forgiveness. I am going to simply STOP IT on negative behavior. Of course, it's easy to SAY you will do all those things, it's another thing all together to put it into practice. But I'm going to give it my best effort. I invite you all to do the same. Peace.
